Some compassion, some trial and error, some wishes for tomorrow.
Will I ever be free from this masking that's kept me in the shadows, frozen in fear and pain? Will I ever feel like a human, or will I never experience the joy of belonging? I wanted to write, for today I almost threw up from emotions, a tension my heart couldn't handle, a talk that went well, yet felt impossible and too messy, how did I get here? Now I'm anxious and lonely, disconnected and wishing for dissociation, I'm stopping myself from that, instead, I'm trying to connect with myself. A broken self. I've been caught up making lists, so I am reaching out for creativity tonight. A candle, some tea: Where have you gone? Darkness has taken your place and there's not much to hold on to, a novel sadness came to greet me at the airport, the usual relief simply observed from afar. I felt for days how this void of a heart I own, began to move erratically as the end approached; she was waving a painful greeting, reminding me that she would pay me a visit. He...