Another year has passed and for the first time, even though it feels extremely weird, I am excited and truly believe that this day will be wonderful.
I am sick, but I don't mind.
Finally part of me is feeling like the person I always wanted and could be: I am free and open and loving, my values are met within myself and I can put them into the world into an infinite cycle of expansion. We are fountains of overflowing love, that have been clogged by the worldly issues, the lack of freedom, the judgement, and once we sort out our minds, the water can flow calmly onto ourselves and others.
That is how I feel today, I can be completely honest, I can show my love to everyone without fear of them leaving, I accept what I can get, and I express my needs, but I have found this place between my ribs where I feel accepted, worthy and loved.
It has been an intense journey, full of downs! But it is all worth it because I am where I am right now.
The work is not over, and don't get me wrong, there are a lot of things I need to deal with still, like understanding this new, clean love I feel which is entirely opposite to the toxic, possessive one I felt before, I have to keep on testing and holding up my boundaries, plus all the things that life throws at us, but that is all ok.
I feel strong, capable, worthy and loved, and I know whatever happens I have me, always, unconditionally.
We are all unique, infinite, wonderful universes within ourselves, and no one can ever give us what others can, but we can give others somethings no one else can give them.
We are all one of a kind, and we are worth exactly the same as anyone else.
Capitalism has brainwashed us to strive for being "more" constantly, and knowing that our worth is immovable, unchangeable, gives us the power to settle and strive for what we want for and from ourselves, instead of comparing it to others.
No one is like you, no one is like me, and the journey will continue.
This is not a poetic-ish text, this is just pure, cleat content. "Contentment is the base to happiness"- said a wonderful person some days ago, and I think it is completely true.
I will dive into the happiness poetic writing soon enough, but for now, I have a novel to write, a forest to walk, a lake to get into and candles on a cake to blow!
Happy birthday to me, the wonderful, unique and finally fully me.