You are WRONG. (14.07.2018)

You are inside this pit, you can see the light, you can hear real happiness from the outside, there's a staircase right by your side. Your logic knows how to get out, it knows how to live, how to be happy, but you can't feel your legs. Your emotions are holding you back, you can't get out.

You can't get out.

And all that time you spent building a tunnel with your hands, thinking you could find the light somehow, somewhere in the dark. All that time was wasted. And here you are, with your new little candle on, seeing the way out, and staying still, because now, even though you can't move, you have spent so much time listening to the outside that you have no energy left. You just feel depressed, unable to leave, envious of their happiness, trapped in your self-sabotaging mind, in your misery.
That is how wrong it is, how wrong I am.

Should I go deeper? I miss pouring my heart out into words so I will go back to that instead of all this... control.