Lovender

Finally I had a sex dream of you, after we're free from each other.

You were sitting there, pants down and erect, I had no underwear and was about to sit on you when I noticed all the people watching us, they watched and watched, so I went to close the curtains. So many faces and eyes, it was a moment for us yet the whole world got involved. 

The curtains were broken, I closed them and walked back as they opened again slowly. I did the trip twice before freezing in the middle until I thought: "Fuck it" went over to sit on you and woke up before sitting back down.


I mourn the love we could have had. If I wasn't so blind and you weren't so deaf. If I had a brain and you had skin. What a curse to love so deeply, what a stab to see so clearly how it could have been if we weren't who we are.


In this life, I believe, I've laughed as much as I've cried, so I fear being in complete balance, it may be my time soon. I'm soaking up the full moon's light.

I hope after this life, I become a tree that lives for thousands of years, but in a world where nature is god, so my love roots as deep as it can and feeds blessings to all who come near.


I wish you sunshine, I wish you love. Goodbye, my lavender love.

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