Finally I had a sex dream of you.
You were sitting there, pants down and your big erect penis, I had a dress and no underwear. I opened my legs and sat on you as a horse, as you slid inside me, I noticed all the people watching us, they watched and watched, so I got off to close the curtains, so many faces and eyes, it was a moment for us yet the whole world got involved.
My mustard curtains were broken, I closed them.and walked back as they'd open again slowly. I did the trip twice before freezing in the middle until I thought: "Fuck it." And went over to sit on your now wet, big erect penis.
I woke up before sitting back down.
In this life, I believe, I've laughed as much as I've cried, so I fear being in complete balance, it may be my time soon. I'm soaking up the full moon's light, topless and missing you, not for your body, but being someone I want to love, to touch, to kiss, to have close.
I mourn the love we could have had. If I wasn't so blind and you weren't so deaf. If I had a brain and you had skin. What a curse to love so deeply, what a pain to see you part from my side, what a stab to have to end it for both our health.
I hope after this life, we can grow together as trees, those that live for thousands of years, but in a world where nature is god, so our love roots as deep as it is right now and feeds blessings to all who come near.
My lavender love.