Am I just settling?
Constantly just waiting for you. I read the old stories and thought how unhappy I have been. I don't want to be like this, but how can it be fixed?
I'm tired of constantly crying, and I'm angry because I'm crying for you.
Wasting my words, because you are not interested. Wasting my mind, because you are not listening. Wasting my time, because I can't change it. Am I also wasting my love? And you need me, and do I need you?
I know this is all my fault. It's all my problem, my issue, my shit. And I thank you for being there for me, so many times.
I just don't know how to fix me, this is a never-ending pain and I'm tired of holding myself.