I feel it coming. The diminishing, the dependency, the fear of having an opinion.
Is it that I always pick people like that, or is it just me that can't deal with this?
How can I stay strong on this? How can I stay strong at all? How can I still feel in control when everything goes through someone else? If every time I go out I have to say something if I have to consult all my decisions with another mind that will judge because it is different than mine?
I'm scared of feeling this way again and I can feel it coming, like an immense earthquake that's growing from the center of my body to every inch of my mind.
How do I stop it?